Being Here – Day 17
Being Here – Poem Day 17
Today’s poem stays close to the inner experience of connection.
It speaks to those moments when closeness feels inviting, and then suddenly doesn’t — when wanting and hesitating exist at the same time.
Not to explain it away, and not to resolve it, but simply to name it honestly.
There’s nothing here to work out or change.
Just listening can be enough to feel a little less alone with this movement.
As always, let it meet you where it does.
Gently read it and let it land. (audio included below)
Warmly,
Per
Poem – When I want closeness and then don’t – Reflecting
When I want closeness and then don’t — Reflecting
There are moments
when desire moves
in more than one direction
at once.
Closeness feels inviting,
and then suddenly heavy.
Distance feels relieving,
and then unexpectedly lonely.
The shift can happen quickly.
Sometimes without a clear reason.
A moment ago, reaching felt right.
Now it feels like too much.
This movement is often confusing.
It can be hard to explain to others,
and even harder to make sense of internally.
The mind may look for consistency.
A clear preference.
A stable position to stand in.
But lived experience
doesn’t always organise itself that way.
Wanting and hesitating can exist together.
So can care and caution.
There may be moments of warmth
followed by a need to step back.
Moments of missing
followed by a wish for space.
This doesn’t mean something is wrong.
It often means more than one need is present at the same time.
Trying to force clarity can add strain.
So can judging the movement as indecision or failure.
Recognising the oscillation doesn’t require choosing a side.
It simply acknowledges the reality
of moving between closeness and distance.
Seeing this clearly can allow the experience to be held
with a little more honesty
and a little less pressure.
